Jamie Ridler has a wonderful little e-course that guides you through the process of making three vision cards. I did this last year and loved the results. This year, I listened to the guided meditation on the heels of making this dream board (another Jamie Ridler inspiration). In the opening meditation, Jamie talks you through sorting a pile of stones that represent things in your life. She asks you to keep three stones that represent three aspects you want to focus on in the new year. Last time, I came away with three definite areas that became the subjects of my vision cards (travel, home and art). This year, I was left with the image of three gemstones glimmering in my hand: turquoise, opaque white quartz and amethyst. They were clear as day, but without any corresponding words of explanation or clarification.
Squelching the urge to repeat the meditation until I had something more concrete, I took out my journal and wrote down the names of the gemstones. I know nothing about gemstones – nothing – but I was intrigued. Rather than researching their properties or connotations, I instead scanned a list of words that Jamie had provided in case you got stuck in the process. Three words jumped out at me immediately: community, physical body and the spiritual world. I did a quick google search and sure enough, the gemstones corresponded to these words.
At the risk of repeating myself, I’m not sure what any of this means. There was a point in my life when all this would have freaked-me-the-eff-out, but I have had way too many intuitive experiences to be afraid anymore. If I’m feeling grounded and balanced when something like this happens, I can view it as information that I should probably pay attention to. When I’m not feeling so centered, I tend to swing to extremes: either these are *SIGNS* (cue creepy celestial music) and I freak-the-eff-out or “NJ” butts in and tells me it’s a crazy coincidence and I need to lay off the sauce.
And at the risk of belaboring this post just a bit more . . . there is one more piece to this unfolding puzzle. I spent last weekend at The Haden Institute completing my third of six intensives for my certification in spiritual direction. I was sharing some of these experiences with my mentor who also has a passion for the intersection of creativity and spirituality. Without batting an eye, she quoted me these lines from Rilke: “You must give birth to your images. They are the future waiting to be born. Fear not the strangeness you feel. The future must enter you long before it happens. Just wait for the birth, for the the hour of the new clarity.” I have tried to hold these words lightly, but I will confess that has been impossible. They feel like both a confirmation of what I already know and a challenge to what I think I believe – especially that fourth line. (Really? Really?)
The whole freaking thing makes me feel like I have walked into a debate on quantum physics armed with the words of a dead poet, a handful of imaginary rocks and a gluestick. Which, I guess, I kinda have.
Anyway, here are the cards. xoS
The Spiritual World
My Physical Body