Post 500!!!! Full Strawberry Moon

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The Full Strawberry Moon rises tonight and asks “What dreams would delight you?” and “What delights do you dream of?” Meditating on the word ‘delight’ brings me a sense of joy-filled lightness – the antithesis of the feeling in my chest most days. This has been a bugger of a month. Fear has come up for me in spades. And right on the heels of all that fear is protection: I want to pile on the emotional armor like nobody’s business. In order to compensate for this (understandable) reaction, I am dreaming of a stripped down state of fearlessness. Letting go of everything I can and delighting in what remains.

When I went to photograph this collage this morning, I was surprised by its sparseness – especially compared to its predecessors in this process. I questioned if I was actually finished or if I had simply stopped. It feels finished to me: a few inspirational words, lots of paintbrushes, a bit of nature and some splotches of soothing colors. Delightful. Yes. And that’s what I need right now. xoS

11 thoughts on “Post 500!!!! Full Strawberry Moon

    • Hey Miss Emmie!
      I didn’t get to see the moon last night – cloudy and rainy in this part of the state. But I did see the first lightning bugs! Just as magical.

      Yeah, this month has sucked pretty bad. But I am finding so much laughter and support in friends who are outside the direct situation. Trying to hold the joy and the sorrow. You know?

      Yes. You do know.

      xoxo
      S

  1. Congrats, Sheila. I’ve enjoyed reading all 500. Here’s to the next 500 (no pressure ;-)). Cathy x

    ps – One of my dear friends was diagnosed with cancer a few years ago (she is in remission now, I’m happy to add). It really threw me and it was hard to talk about what I was going through because that seemed selfish to me when I (inevitably) compared it to what she had to deal with. But those feelings are still valid…anyway, just wanted to say I’m thinking of you.

    • Sign me up! I had a breakthrough (as opposed to a breakdown, LOL) and realized I want to start blogging about homeschooling again. I was asked to guest blog in a couple of places and it reframed my thinking. So look for that in the near future.

      And yes, it does seems selfish. I know what you mean. But it doesn’t dim the reality that we are all experiencing so many feelings. Giving voice to them is so important.

      Cancer is a bitch.

      xoS

      • I look forward to that. I’m having such a strange year this year. Just for fun I did one of those multiple choice “What kind of homeschooler are you?” quizzes online and it turns out my values and beliefs about education fit more with unschooling than Waldorf!

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