I’ve never had writer’s block in this space. For over two years and 375 (!) posts, I have never hesitated at the keyboard . . . until now. Until recently, I followed a clearly defined schedule of monthly posts. This scaffolding served to solidify my blog beginnings and helped me find my online voice. And even more than that, these past two years of blogging have allowed me to take myself and our homeschooling much more seriously. Since the late fall, however, whenever I sit down to write a post about homeschooling plans or a block review, it falls flat and rarely seems to make it out of the draft phase. It’s not what I want to talk about and subsequently, I have been trying to change my end of the conversation. So here I am, hovering over the keyboard, staring at a blinking cursor and thinking, “What to say?”
In removing the structure of my blog, I hoped to provide space to create something new. I hinted at this back in February, and even though it is (unbelievably!) May, nothing solid and predictable has emerged. I feel as though I am casting about and simply lurch from post to post. I’m trying to be present with myself during this transitory stage, trusting that something (anything!) will arise. Because to be quite honest, I like having a plan. I like to know what comes next. I like predictability. However a safe, predictable space is not usually where creativity comes calling, and creativity is exactly what I am courting right here, right now. I know I need to find the sweet spot between a supportive structure (some might say rhythm . . . ahem) and a rigid monotony. If I can push through this awkward transition, I can bring my writing and this blog to a new place. So even though I feel as though I’m flying blind, I am continuing to show up and believe that whatever words do come, you will receive them, as always, with a gentle kindness.
Thank you for being so dear. ♥S